Tag: rosary

rosary: optimism

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My Lord, my God, you gave me a creative soul. i tell stories as i breathe.

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The unpublicized side effect of such creativity is an incomparable ability to imagine the future, good and bad. Which comes up – utopian or dystopian – depends upon my mood.

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Christ, all futures are a dream. Therefore, i only have this moment to hold in my hands. Tomorrow’s stress is as much a phantom as yesterday’s pain.

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Please, Spirit, fill me now, as i pray.

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Hope and optimism flow best without the barriers of projection and anxiety. Christ, i am doing all i can within this moment. Please help me see that is enough.

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All this i pray in your Name, Jesus Christ, my Lord. AMEN

rosary: existential prayers

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Christ, i am having an existential dilemma. i do not know what i should pray for anymore. Part of the problem is that i cannot keep myself from listening to others. People tell me that if i want something badly enough, pray for it with absolute conviction, visualize it hard enough, demand it from the universe without giving it the option to let me down, work for it with enough focus and zeal, and then i will get it. If i don’t get it, obviously i fell down on one of those things. Another group tells me things only happen because it is your will, Christ, and either i have such blessings or i don’t. One set of advisors tell me that any sorrow or grief or insecurity automatically condemns me and makes all the moments of peace and joy and communion irrelevant, for fleeting enlightenment is worth nothing. The other side tells me that emotions are part of what make life rich, and sometimes surviving the crisis to find peace again is victory in itself – indeed, evidence of your hand helping me through the world.

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Christ, i cannot quite define what i believe. i know there have been moments when you touched my heart and saved me. i know that i have prayed and begged to receive a gentle no as an answer. Moreover, i know i have been called and vacillated – in effect saying no to you. All the yes’s in the world do not make up for the guilt of that failure.

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Right now, i reach down in my soul and find my most basic prayer:

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Jesus: help me to be peaceful and awake, always listening for your advice, even when caught in deepest turmoil and need.

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My savior, i reach out to you – i have my plans and hopes and dreams, and i will work obsessively to make them real, but i will accept whatever comes.

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i pray for equanimity, strength, confidence and joy no matter what comes to me, Christ, my Lord, for with your love and forgiveness all earthly things are irrelevant. All this i pray in your name, AMEN.

rosary: in defense of my sanity

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Christ, I have another person that I cared for to the point of stupidity, who keeps telling me things about myself that do not match what I see within. Once more, someone inserts himself between you and me, insisting that he knows my relationship with you and the quality of my soul better than I do myself.

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Jesus, you know, I am one to believe what people say, particularly those I care for and respect. I look for the truth in even the most outrageous statements. I always wonder if you are trying to send me a message through their words. Indeed, this has been a great benefit – realizing that I was being called to trust in You unhesitatingly – and it has been a great harm – tying me up in knots, wondering how something so baseless and cruel could be true.

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Christ, hold the hand of this fool, give me better discernment and help me to be strong and confident.

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Let me see the truth of myself.

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Perhaps I should be more hesitant to see the truth, Christ, for we are all have our moments of weakness, wretchedness, failure and cruelty. However, my Lord, I have been working my whole life to be a better servant of God and I cannot manage change if I my vision is clouded by delusions and projections.

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Thank you Christ, for all the love and kindness you have shown this wayward soul. You have brought me through times when I thought I would perish from this world. I am grateful beyond words to you. Amen.

rosary: centering on love

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Christ, I had been suffering, but time has taught me what the cure for my grief is:

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You have brought so much love to my life, all I have to do is think about the people who have loved me: those I have lost to life’s change, those who have returned to you, those who still doggedly hang on, caring for me despite myself. You have given me the healing passion of great love. And, even if I forgot all of that, I have had strangers treat me with kindness, go out of their way to help me, and see my humanity when I was less than at my best.

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The sea of faces, all people who have held out a hand to include me in the greater community of the human family, fill my heart with thanksgiving and gratitude. If I focus on these brilliant examples of love and kindness, it can counter-act any woe that I feel.

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Thank you for these blessings!

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And, of course, human love is but a pale reflection of the Divine – the way we channel you through ourselves and into our lives. Thank you, Christ, for the joy, blessings and comfort that you have given, for the love that has saturated my cells.

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Jesus, I give you my thanks and love. Amen.

rosary for the broken artist

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Christ, I have been drowning.

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Desperately, i want to believe that you would not have given me this intense sense of purpose and the awesome bliss i find in creating just for me to demonstrate all the ways i can fail when given such gifts.

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So, my Lord, i hold out my heart to you – i ripped myself open so you can see my urgent, naked need.

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1 – Please, Christ, make me strong

2 – give me wisdom

3 – stoke my courage

4 – bring me inspiration

5 -bestow some confidence

6 – lead me gently

7 – make me able

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i pray thus because it is through my work that i honor you best – my weakness and limitations impede much i would do, so i worship as i draw, paint, throw, sculpt and write.  Thankfully communion can always be found in the flow of art.  There, i feel your fierce love.

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i strive to serve you well, so i beg in the Name of Jesus Christ, please add a few more blessings onto the heap you have already given me.  Please, hear my prayer.  AMEN

rosary for help and hope

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Sweet Christ, i am lost

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My heart aches over my cluelessness.  So many things need to be done.  i am failing myself and so many others, for i am only one exhausted, pained, weak and overwhelmed person.

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Jesus, tear through my worry and confusion so the light of your LOVE will wash over my trembling spirit.

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[Please,] give me help and hope

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Every day, I pray for you to save me from my foolishness, my weakness and the gravitational pull of despair.  i keep placing myself onto the firm ground of faith, praying strength and courage will blossom within me.

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Thank you, Lord, for this calling that drives me.  i endeavor to make myself worthy of those wondrous gifts.  AMEN.

rosary: for others

I gathered this up years ago from the Book of Common prayer, at least that’s what I remember doing …

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a prayer for others

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My Lord, my God, I pray for You to intercede on behalf of _____ . _____ needs You in obvious and subtle ways, and I pray for Your help.

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Every person on this world is vulnerable and small, compared to the rest of Your creation. Even so, You pay attention to our lives: You love us all and comfort us in our times of need. Please, Lord, find a way to shine through into _____’s life/lives, soothe his/her/their soul(s).

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God, I pray for Your intervention:

week 1 Heal him/her/them.
week 2 Comfort him/her/them.
week 3 Bless him/her/them.
week 4 Cover him/her/them in Your grace.
week 5 Give him/her/them hope.
week 6 Nourish his/her/their spirit(s).
week 7 Fortify his/her/their faith and strength.

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Thank You, gentle Lord, for hearing my prayer and loving Your children.

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Glory be to the three aspects of God: the Lord that created everything, Christ that saved us all, & Spirit that works in the world & whispers through the trees. Amen.

rosary: for protection when in love

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Oh, Sweet God, protect me.

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My heart has leapt out of my chest and curled up in the hands of another. Despite all common sense and ignoring the cautious mind, the heart loves more with each beat. Only, Christ, this is not the first time i have loved – and i know too well this story could end in the pain of loss.

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Please, give me the same protection that you provide fools and idiots – for i might have turned myself into one or the other. i love without caution or limit.

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[Please,] keep me safe as i love.

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My Lord, i cannot believe love is anything other than a good thing, making the world better one life at a time. Still, i cannot let it distract me from my love for you and my efforts to do serve you. Christ, i thank you for this chance to feel earthly love again, no matter where it takes me.

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All this i pray in the name of the Lord. AMEN.

rosary: thin skin

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My Lord, my God, my Christ, i am on the verge of tears, the words of another have unseated my joy and gratitude again. i am weak; my skin, too thin.

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I have heard things about myself that i pray are not true. The possibility that i could be as described makes me want to tear my clothes and throw ashes over my head. i lose faith in myself – i feel like my emotions and reactions must be reprehensible somehow. i grieve over the blow to friendship; i am overwhelmed by the judgment of another; i drown in forsakenness.

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Jesus, my heart aches unto death. i feel unutterably alone.

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Please comfort me.

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My Lord, my God, my Christ, help me turn away from self-doubt and self-loathing. Do not let me be blind to my faults, but please help me hold them in balance with our love, your gifts and your grace. Please, make me understand that as long as you love me, all human judgments and rejection are immaterial. Help me understand that my truth matters.

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All this i pray with every bit of my broken heart, in the glory of your Name. Amen.